Posts by Ame SF

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Coming Out To My JW Sister

by Ame SF in

now, i have been mentally "awake" for quite a while, but i'll just say march/april this year.

i won't go into detail about what it was that made me "realize" everything, so don't bother asking.. so, i've known for years that i wasn't like most girls in my classes, kingdom hall, and just in general.

from a very young age i had that obvious interest in the same sex, but seeing as i was seemingly the only one feeling that way i would brush it off and eventually i started getting interested in guys.

Ame SF

I wouldn't really think so WingCommander, although I'm not really sure myself so I'm not one to talk; She openly likes a guy at my congregation so if anything she's probably straight but I'm not going to interrogate my sister XD

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Coming Out To My JW Sister

by Ame SF in

now, i have been mentally "awake" for quite a while, but i'll just say march/april this year.

i won't go into detail about what it was that made me "realize" everything, so don't bother asking.. so, i've known for years that i wasn't like most girls in my classes, kingdom hall, and just in general.

from a very young age i had that obvious interest in the same sex, but seeing as i was seemingly the only one feeling that way i would brush it off and eventually i started getting interested in guys.

Ame SF

Thank you Nicolaou! that warms my heart! :)

Ps. Thank you Heartsafire and truth_b_known for your heartfelt feedback and advice, this community is full of such genuine people!

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Coming Out To My JW Sister

by Ame SF in

now, i have been mentally "awake" for quite a while, but i'll just say march/april this year.

i won't go into detail about what it was that made me "realize" everything, so don't bother asking.. so, i've known for years that i wasn't like most girls in my classes, kingdom hall, and just in general.

from a very young age i had that obvious interest in the same sex, but seeing as i was seemingly the only one feeling that way i would brush it off and eventually i started getting interested in guys.

Ame SF

Thank you DNCall! I am in fact baptized, unfortunately, and I am aware of the "penalty" for me being me. I hope my sister will still want to support me as well, I have faith in that at least.

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Coming Out To My JW Sister

by Ame SF in

now, i have been mentally "awake" for quite a while, but i'll just say march/april this year.

i won't go into detail about what it was that made me "realize" everything, so don't bother asking.. so, i've known for years that i wasn't like most girls in my classes, kingdom hall, and just in general.

from a very young age i had that obvious interest in the same sex, but seeing as i was seemingly the only one feeling that way i would brush it off and eventually i started getting interested in guys.

Ame SF

"I'm Gay."

Now, I have been mentally "awake" for quite a while, but I'll just say March/April this year. I won't go into detail about what it was that made me "realize" everything, so don't bother asking.

So, I've known for years that I wasn't like most girls in my classes, kingdom hall, and just in general. From a very young age I had that obvious interest in the same sex, but seeing as I was seemingly the only one feeling that way I would brush it off and eventually I started getting interested in guys. I mean, always being told the same spiel of my classmates liking boys and kissing them and such kind of had worn off on me. Then, puberty happened.

Boy oh boy was this a confusing part of my life; hormones raging and new experiences... it was pure mayhem. (It still is mayhem seeing how I'm a teenager and going through this still, but I have to admit it was more intense as a preteen tbh; Life is hella confusing. But, back to the "story") So you could just imagine it, this 11-12 year old girl having a very difficult time putting herself in a label. Around this time, my feelings for the same sex had came back. Was it due to hormones or my changes in critical thinking, I'll never know, but it certainly ate at me for a while. I still had some partial feelings for guys, but anything past the "crush" thing made me uncomfortable if it was a guy; but low and behold, I wanted more than just a simple crush with a girl.

These feelings got so strong that I officially determined I wasn't Bisexual or Pansexual, but that I was Lesbian. (I hate saying Lesbian, I'd rather say "Gay" but I'm unsure why) Now, many people might love to quickly point out, "Oh, you weren't born that way! HAH! I knew it! All you do is choose this sinful and perverted way of thinking and lifestyle!" ~ Well, when you have the media constantly glorifying heterosexual relationships in TV, Movies, and even children's cartoons, you must admit it does condition young children to believe that is the norm. Luckily, we see more positive portraying of LGBT+ things and relationships and all forms of entertainment. However, even if it might have been a total roller coaster with me trying to find out who I was, that doesn't disprove my feelings. People today are sometimes just too quick to disprove something as silly as a person's own feelings, even when they aren't in their shoes.

So fast forward to a few days ago, the day when I came out for the first time to my sister.

Now, I thought very long and hard on how and what to say, or even if I should do it! I had second thoughts but I shook it off and mustered up the little courage I had. My sister had noticed I'd been feeling down, which to be honest I have been down since I'd realized this religion is a cult. She kept asking what was wrong like a loving big sis should, so I told her I'd tell her at home. I had realized she'd be moving out in at least a year, and I needed to make the most of it. Once she'd be out of the house I'd be left with a bratty but adorable little brother and a pain in the ass mom that I still admit I love. So, once we got home I decided to tell her when she was comfortable and able to listen. I said it very bluntly-

"I'm Gay."

She was silent for the longest and most agonizing minute in my life. I was anticipating crying, or maybe her running out the room in shock, but she just sat there. She smiled the most beautiful smile I'd ever seen in my life and said she had an intuition that I was for a while. She hugged me and said for me to give her a little time, but that she would keep it a secret and that she still loved me. I cannot tell you how amazing it was to hear that from her; AND FROM A JW! She never said anything like,"You wont be in the paradise with me." or,"Just know Jehovah doesn't approve.", she just understood. Plus it's not like I'd believe those two phrases anyway. Lol.

So yeah it went pretty great. Any advice I'd like to give to fellow confused ones of their sexuality? Wait until you know for sure and when you're ready, then be smart on who you tell and make sure you trust them! ;3

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We live a simple life

by hoser in

this is a video on jw broadcasting to quit your full time career, sell your house and belongings and start a window washing career.

i agree with some of what is presented but not all.

it is good to live within your means as presented in this video.

Ame SF

We watched the video just yesterday at our Tuesday meeting, and I was just shaking my head the whole time.

So basically what the video is trying to do is discourage others who are economically stable and just stable all together, to give that up and possibly face very tight budgets and more stress. Yes, in the video the couple had stressful jobs, but other than that they had a pretty great life. Great house, great food, financial stability, everything.

I agree, you shouldn't be TOO materialistic, but what is wrong with having a big house, a nicely paying job, and good looking cars? Is the organization afraid that such ones who have those things will be overly-praised because of the things they have?

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Morris has JW's CLAP for child that died from "NO BLOOD"

by wifibandit in

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_yxw_wxyviu.

thanks to anon for the source video and to cappytan for video editing & upload!.

anthony morris iii, knoxville tennessee sunday 2016-07-03.

Ame SF

I am honestly in pure shock and on the verge of crying.

Before I had took the time to really dig deep into the WT teachings, I probably would've nodded my head and clapped as well to that talk. (Indoctrination and brain washing made me like that over the years)

But now, just listening to the people in the audience clap makes me pity them so much.

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Would you consider shunning merciful?

by poopie in

jw
friends

ok

Ame SF

Definitely not.

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Having No Political Opinion Is Bull Crap

by Ame SF in

hello, i'm ame and after such heartwarming feedback last time from my other topic sharing my current situation, i felt the urge to just share an experience of mine that accrued a few weeks ago.. i was at mcdonalds with my mother and little brother, eating our food and in the background was the news playing on the tvs they had in the dining area.

and what were they talking about on the news?.

gun control.. now, i love the news.

Ame SF

Very good point redvip2000, It shouldn't be as easy as it is today.

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Having No Political Opinion Is Bull Crap

by Ame SF in

hello, i'm ame and after such heartwarming feedback last time from my other topic sharing my current situation, i felt the urge to just share an experience of mine that accrued a few weeks ago.. i was at mcdonalds with my mother and little brother, eating our food and in the background was the news playing on the tvs they had in the dining area.

and what were they talking about on the news?.

gun control.. now, i love the news.

Ame SF

Hello, I'm Ame and after such heartwarming feedback last time from my other topic sharing my current situation, I felt the urge to just share an experience of mine that accrued a few weeks ago.

I was at McDonalds with my mother and little brother, eating our food and in the background was the news playing on the TVs they had in the dining area. And what were they talking about on the news?

Gun Control.

Now, I love the news. I love the debates, the weather channel, the harmless interviews.. just because you learn much from them. Yes some may argue its propaganda, which I agree at times especially with some of the ISIS debate and everything, but Gun Control is not. (my opinion, *alarm sounds* my opinion coming up!)

I think banning Guns should not happen. Here is why-

Sweden. Guns are illegal in Sweden, but yet they have a high crime rate. So, lets take this example and apply it TO america. People will still kill other people, either with guns or not, and banning them will make people less aware of a threat. I've come to realize people enjoy doing the things that are AGAINST the law. (oh of course they do *eyeroll*) So you see my point. It's not the guns that kill people, it's the PEOPLE that kill the other people.

So yeah, just imagine me saying all of THAT to my mom.

She used the same old defense, saying how being a JW means you are neutral and stuff. Basically she was telling me,"You are not allowed an opinion at all, even though having an opinion is what makes you human." I tried changing the focus off of me to "other people", trying to make it seem as though I am stating what other people ("worldly people") think instead of myself; Even though I had the opinion that "Other people" did. But STILL, she kept putting the focus on me, saying to stop stating "other people's" opinions, because then I'd start believing them. You can imagine what tangent she went on about later. As servants of Jehovah, Jesus said~, one who lives by the sword dies by the sword, yada yada.

It was likely evident to her that I would win this debate, so she used her "parent authority" to shut me up. She said in a very full-of-herself attitude,"Why don't we discuss this with your father and siblings during family worship and see in the bible what Jehovah thinks, hm?"

You all have no idea how much I wanted to just flip that table we were sitting at and stick up the finger. The alternate timelines that go through my head...

So yeah, that happened. If I hear the sentence, "Let us see what Jehovah thinks.." once more I will go insane.

I'm also going to the meeting tonight. Every Tuesday and Sunday until I am out of this hell. I didn't study (not like I ever do), wish me luck. Hopefully my mom won't get at me again for not commenting.

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JW's new anthem

by neat blue dog in

sing to jehovah song # 151, (just replace any words about sports with words about other religions).. http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dmwaynbrtne.

Ame SF

I thoroughly enjoyed that, Thank youuu It gave me a good laugh!